A note from Marika (owner of KE)

You guys, I'm scared.

Our staff are working from home, I work out of my home.  So business is still going... but no one knows what kind of shortages loom ahead.  We don't know how long we're going to need to isolate ourselves.

I'm going to get personal for a minute here, which isn't something I normally like to do.  We're all going through our own struggles, and I think it's important to let others know that they're not alone in these really confusing times.

My grandmother is one of my favourite people in the world.  She was basically my nanny growing up.  I ate almost every meal with her until I was about 12-13 years old.  Three years ago, we moved our family (my husband Douglas and my two stepkids) and the business into my childhood home.  Gran still lives there, in her basement apartment, where she's lived for the last 33 years.  She's a proud woman, she's an amazing woman, and she loves her family more than anything.  She retired from her seamstress job when I was born so she could help take care of me.  The majority of the house has completely changed since we moved in - there's a whole business on the main floor, there's a whole new family upstairs.  But that apartment is a time capsule of my youth.

I remember playing with my box of loose lego next to her sewing machine when I was a kid.  The table where we had all our meals is still there.  The kitchen hasn't changed much, except for a few modifications to make up for her rapidly deteriorating mobility.

She's dying.  

Not of COVID-19.  This isn't going to be a news story, there probably won't even be an obituary.  She's outlived all of her friends by a decade.  She's just a 93-year-old woman who's lived an incredible life and is fading away.  All she has is her family - who adore her - and her time capsule apartment.  The apartment which is slowly becoming foreign to her as she loses her cognition.  The apartment which is cruelly turning against her as her mobility decreases.  One day it will be the apartment that is just an empty shell without her.

Times are tough.  I don't know what the future of the business looks like.  The only thing I know for certain is that sometime soon, one of my favourite people in the world won't be in my world anymore.  That's not a certainty I like to think about.  It's not one I want to dwell on.  But my gran is fortunate in one way - she'll pass peacefully, in the apartment she's so proud of, surrounded by the people who love her most in the world.

A lot of people won't have that luxury.  Stay at home if you can.  Be careful.  Be mindful.  Treat yourself if you can afford it.  Do little things for others if it's possible to safely do so.  And take a moment to tell someone you love them.  They may not be here tomorrow.

I love you guys.  Thanks for continuing to support the passion project that is Kink Engineering.